Our First Appointment

This Friday we had our first doctor appointment. I wasn't very nervous until we walked into the waiting room, and then it hit! Luckily, I had some paperwork to fill out so that kept me occupied until they called Brad and I back. Then after a few minutes of waiting in the ultrasound room the Dr. came in and we got to see the baby! Luckily we could see it immediately so there was no question he/she was in there. Then we saw this little "blinking" on the screen...the heartbeat! That was absolutely one of the most amazing things I have ever seen! To see that little heart beating inside of me makes the nausea not seem so bad after all.
It's funny because even though you can't see anything but a big blob from the ultrasound picture I have been showing it to everyone that we have told since Friday. My next appt. is in 3 weeks, right after we come back from Sullivan's Island. Hopefully, after that the nausea will begin to taper off and go away. That's my prayer anyway!

It's Beginning to Sink In

So, after weeks of keeping quiet about the baby growing in my uterus, Ft. Knox (aka Brad) finally agreed to let me tell a few people about my pregnancy this week! We ate dinner with our friends Matt, Cheri, & Ethan on Thursday night and finally spilled the beans. It was such a relief to be able to ask some questions and hear bits & pieces of her experience with her pregnancy. After dinner we went back to their place so she could loan me some of her pregnancy books for me to read. She even got out a bag of her maternity clothes and offered to let me borrow them whenever I was ready. It's so wierd to think of how I"ll look as a pregnant woman with a huge belly!
That same night we tried to go over to Anna & Tim's house to tell them too but unfortunately they wern't home. I really wanted to tell Anna in person but it didn't end up happening that way. We saw them Friday night when we played games with 2 other couples from church but there just wasn't a good opportunity to pull Anna aside for a few minutes. Then we went to our churches softball team cookout/celebration last night and there still wasn't a good time to talk. So on the way home I told myself that I was going to have to tell her today at church. Well, after we got home I got a phone call from who else but Anna. She was calling because she thought I was a little down at the party and wanted to make sure I was okay (little did she know it was just some nausea). Well I couldn't hold it in any longer so I just told her over the phone. She screamed so loud and was so excited! It was so sweet to hear my cousin and friend rejoicing over what the Lord has done for us. This child is going to be so blessed to have such a great "aunt & uncle" in Anna & Tim.
So, needless to say, this pregnancy is finally starting to seem real and it feels so good!

Our BIG News!

After a more than a year of praying, waiting, hoping, and crying I am FINALLY pregnant! After a week of wondering I woke up Saturday morning and took a pregnancy test. Almost immediately I saw the 2 lines come up in the window. I stood there shocked for a minute or so and then went in to wake Brad up with the news. After a few minutes of celebration we prayed and praised the Lord for this amazing blessing.

It's funy because even though I am excited I also want to balance those feelings out with the reality that I am only 5 weeks along. I know many women who have had miscarriages pretty recently and this reality is extremely sobering !

At the same time it has been so hard keeping this news to myself these past few days. Being around two of my close friends has made it exceptionally difficult! Brad is set on waiting until after our first doctors appointment before we tell ANYONE, so I am committed to respecting his wishes. I know this is the wise thing to do, but if it were up to me I would have told Anna and Cheri by now! I wonder if Brad will be able to keep the news to ourselves when we spend a long weekend with his parents and sister over the 4th of July. I guess we'll see!